seseungguhnya Engkau jualah tempat sebaik-baik untuk mengadu..

30 Disember 2012. 11.59pm

betullah apa yang mereka kata, KAWAN hanya ada ketika SUKA..

berkorban

tahu ke maksod berkorban?



betul2 tahu ke maksud die?

hakikatnye, aku sendiri banyak berkorban demi kebahagiaan kome..
tak apelah..

selama ini aku asyik fikir tentang orang lain..
seolah2 " they come first"
 nak buat sesuatu, aku yang jadi x keruan tntng ape pihak ke3 akan fikir..

siapalah saye

saye sedar saye tidak handsome, tidak bergaya, buntal pulak tu.. tapi tidak bermakna hidup saya harus dinilai dengan atas dasar luaran sahaja. saye berhak untuk menikmati segala kurniaan sama seperti mereka yang lain. KENAPA harus bezakan saye dengan ini semua.

saye tahu saye bukan pujaan mana2 gadis. tapi itu bukan menjadi persoalannya kerana rugilah saye sebagai seorang muslim hanya GILA kan untuk diGILAI kaum hawa semata-mata. cukuplah sekadar hormat dan tidak perlu membandingkan saye dengan mereka yang jaoh lebih tampan dan "calon2" suami katenya..

hormatilah saye kerana saye.

berkawanlah dengan saye kerana saye

is it worth to become a Biomedical student?

when it comes to express my thought, I'd definitely losing the grips to catch the main ideas of what I'm thinking i was about to tell. is it because i love using "ayat bunge-bunge"?.
It was the 3rd days of fasting month (ramadhan) and up until now, there is NO words of satisfaction to describe the quality of my ibadah puasa. NOOOOOO... InsyaAllah, i will keep motivating myself to become a great Muslim  InsyaAllah. But that was not the main point of what  i am about to tell.

the title says it ALL..

yeah, "is it WORTH to become a Biomedical student?" what is it actually the Biomedical science? WHAT does it serves in future? are you becoming a DOCTOR? what's the differences between YOU and the medical lab technologist (MLT)?

STOP asking those questions IF YOU ARE A TYPICAL MENTALLY - DOCTORs-minded wannabe !
WHY? Do you think to have a GREAT scores in exams DOES really mean YOU have to take a medical course  and not going to look elsewhere BUT a medical doctor only? come on you freak. gimme a BREAK! why? just tell me WHY? is it because we are living in MALAYSIA and that's the only field promising a good future or were you being forced by your parents since you were kid or is this YOUR truly ambition ever since you're a baby?

if this is your ambition which NO ONE forces you to be it, with a big HEART i congratulate you. YOU deserve to have it, you worked hard to get it and once you get it.. ITS  a blessed coz it's an honored job as you would know. 

FYI, i am not being psychotic and ENVY for this course just because I AM A BIOMEDICAL student and NOT A MEDICAL student. NOOOO! it just i'm sick of people keep asking the same questions over and over again." WHAT IS BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE??"  we (MO and science officer(biomedical)) as in a HEALTH crew know well our duty and there is no ISSUES between US! because we clearly understand our JOB in this field.  Unfortunately, people who don't have basic knowledge in the  WORLD of health ethic, find these two courses a MASSIVE HEADACHE! yeah, i am not blaming them since they're worrying so much for their children who want to pursue in health stream, not knowing which one is the best, which one promising a great LIFE in future ahead.

i'm kind of sad to ever think : parents always put TRUST in "MEDICAL" field on top of the rest.

the main point is, no matter what field you are in, Allah is there with you. Allah gives "rezeki" to everyone. no need to worry about that. doesn't mean you're not been chosen to take medical course, the world stop spinning and the clock stop ticking. NOoo...life must goes on. Allah knows better than us, Allah decides everything the things we had planned. and FOR THE parents, show your support and DO SEARCH on the web OTHER courses OTHER than MEDICAL course (if your children SAH2 X LAYAK!!!)

hope no one misunderstood the massage i wanted to convey..

TEHEEE!! =))

RAGAM manusie

kekadang kite perlu jadi hipokrit utk jaga hati orang lain. tak perlu jujor sangat dan tengok kiri kanan sebelum mulut nak bercakap:

situasi 1:

#kedengaran sayup-sayup lagu tema KLMU berkumandang di corong radio di sebuah tempat kerja, dikelilingi staff.

budak dungu :  ko dengar? lagu feberet ko ni... RADIO,TV..habes sume tempat die promote lagu KLMU. ~WAKAKAKAKA( gelak habes besar la ni tahap dewe)

budak baek :  ehem2x...pssst..staff sebelah kite ni bekas student KLMU le (sambil menjeling bagi isyarat mate~ takot staff dengar)

budak dungu :  GULLLP!!

situasi 2:

#disebuah gerai makanan, ketika sedang menikmati juadah makanan.

budak dungu : "mate menjeling"..menjeling  dan teros menjeling" (seolah-olah melihat orang kebuluran sedang makan didepan matanye)

budak baek : pehal ko ni?

budak dungu : ko x kenyang ke?

budak baek : pehal plak?

budak dungu : ko ngah makan mee goreng, pastu makan kentang goreng. X CUKOP ea ???? (muke baek punye sarcastic macam babi kene lenyek stamroll)

budak baek : aik, biala..

budak dungu : emmmm,,,,,,..  ermmm....urmmm....  NAK SIKIT BLEY??

budak baek :  -.-"

situasi 3

budak baik : sedapnye makan roti butterscotch !! yum3x

budak dungu : bagi aku roti fiber or raisin lagi sedap.  aku x suke sangat butterscotch sebab die... eee berLEMAK ok! sangat x bagos untuk kesihatan..

budak baik :  ooo...T.T

keesokkan harinye.....

budak dungu : weh ade makanan x?? butterscotch! nak sket!!!

budak baek : ha?? erk....

situasi 4:

budak baik : HAHAHAHA...klako la cite ni!! WAKAKAKAKA

budak dungu : pebenda yang klako sangat ni?

budak baek : ko cube bayangkan  *bla..bla..bla..bla..bla..bla..bla.bla..bla..bla..bla..bla..bla..bla. 30minit bercerita.*.. KELAKO kan??

...............bunyik cengkerik.................

budak dungu : ko ni sehat x?

budak baek : T.T

situasi 5

# ketika budak baek sedang berborak dengan budak dungu 


dengan x semena-mena

budak dungu : aku rase ko kene pakai LISTERINE x pon chewing gum mint. sesuai gile degan ko!

budak baek : "SENTAAPPP!!!!!"



huh...sedey la dapat member mcmni...banyak lagi peristiwa2 yang meyayat hati tapi cukuplah setakat ini dulu wat tatapan sume. sedey bile berada di situasi 5. tapi nak wat camne, RAGAM MANUSIE...

the internship program

when i feel something, i never usually console myself to write it down on a piece of paper just to read it back later on. I am suck with memorize things but I am good in keeping it secret. i don't usually tell others how i feel because I am sick of telling people things that they're not interested in. they'll end up to be ignorance. rather than being hurt, why don't i just shut my mouth up and live it own my own.

I cannot believe today is the third day of my internship in UKM medical center (ppukm) which is YAHOO for me. (that does sounds sarcastic doesn't it?) maybe i will get used to it or maybe the place doesn't seem attractive anymore since i had been there for 2 months before doing the same works as i attach to now. i cannot wait to leave soon.

being away from family, friends and food makes me really think the need to be an independent person. even its only the beginning , i feel i have living here for years and it is about time to publish myself on "salam perantauan" page in newspaper. even though i still have my roommate to keep me company, but i still feel lack of something. maybe i'm way too thinking about it or maybe the atmosphere here makes me feel like " i am alone". nevertheless i have to be here until 16th of August where it is the day i accomplished the internship program. but for now, let's stay cool.

every night, I'll go to bed early since i got to work for the next day. its very typical of me to do so as i were thinking that i had filled with tiring day in the hospital. yeah, you know the patient's samples and stuff, the urgent one, retest samples and so forth. but you know,...students are not allowed to hands on any samples except they are being told to do so, in my case by medical lab technologist or the STAFFss. i am glad that the staffs are all being friendly and nice to every one of us. they make us feel like we are a part of the family. then I guess that's the reason why i slept early because i am afraid i would be late to see them AGAIN the next day.

to cheer me up, there is one movie that i watched and in fact i keep watching it whenever i feel bored. that is "one liter of tears". yeah i know the movie was a bit old to watch but i only knew this movie through a friend and after i watch it, i want to watch it again..again and again. the movie based on a true story which was adapted into series of episodes. i am not sure whether the narrator keep the original version in each episodes or not, but i think it must have been edited here and there, add more romantic scenes and backgrounds to make to story more tearful and gazillion teary eyes. 5 STARS for me.

apparently, these are the things i think i did the most throughout my internship program.

thanks buddy :)

perit anak-anak yatim

ALHAMDULILLAH..ALHAMDULILLAH...ALHAMDULILLAH...
hanya itu ungkapan yang mampu aku tuturkan sepanjang perjalanan pulang dari rumah kebajikan anak2 yatim baitul saidati khadijah di Gombak petang td.

perasaan hiba dan sayu terus menyelubungi aku tatkala anak2 kecil ini mendendangkan lagu perpisahan sebelum kami berangkat pulang ke ukm. alangkah sucinya hatimu wahai adik-adikku. sesungguhnya, engkau tidak berdosa, sesungguhnya apalah dayamu untuk memikul kesusahan hidup tanpa kedua ibu bapa. walaupun kehadiran abang2 dan kakak2 menggembirakan hati adik2 utk seketika namun belum cukup untuk meringankan penderitaan yg selama ini dipikul oleh adik2. sebak menahan airmata jatuh ke pipi, aku terus berpaling muke melihat ke arah luar. tidak sanggup untuk aku menatap wajah2 yang masih belum sempat merasai nikmat kasihnya seorang ibu ataupun bapa ,namun belum sempat jua adik2 merasai kasih abang2 dan kakak2 kerna waktu yang singkat utk saling mengenali.


adik-adik.
engkau sememangnya layak untuk hidup didunia ini.jangan pernah terfikir akan perbedaan hidup antara rakan2 lain dengan kehidupan adik2. buktikan kepada mereka bahawa adik2 mampu berjaya.pengorbanan, kesusahan, dan semangat berdikari adik semua betul2 memberi inspirasi kepada abang. sekurang-kurangnya aku masih ade kedua ibu bapa untuk aku mengadu. tetapi, bagaimana dgn mereka? hanya bergantung kepada seorang penjaga yang digelar "IBU", (bukan darah daging) terpaksa berkongsi dengan semua penghuni dalam 1 rumah..

sebak adik ni menangis..

dari pagi tadi aku melihat, adik ni betol2 bijak..insyAllah, esok besar akan berjaye..

aku juge difahamkan bahawa penghuni anak yatim yang paling muda adalah berumur 2 tahun.
ditanya,
"siape yang jage adik2 kecik ni"
.mmm.....
"kami yang jage bang, setiap orang kene ade adik angkat utk dijage"
"walaupun bukan adik kandung sendiri?"
"aah, kekadang kami yang volunteer nak jage"

ya Allah, besar sungguh pengorbananmu. setiap adik2 kecil ini bukan memanggil kakak angkatnye sebagai kakak, namu sebagai ibu. dan org yg bertanggungjawab menjaga adik2 kecil ni pule di panggil "anak".

.."Ya ALLAH, Engkau telah memberikan aku segala-galanya. Engkau juala yang mengurniakan IBU dan Bapa kepada aku. maka, Engkau panjangkanla umur ibudan bapaku..kerna belum puas aku menabur bakti, membalas jasa kepada mereka. sesungguhnya, Engkau Maha Besar dan Maha Mengetahui'...

ammiiinn.

dinner pak ARAB

assalamualaikum.
i had dinner course night last night and it was superb (to what I've heard the feedback from lecturers,seniors and guests). not to mention, it was the GREATEST dinner so far in the histories!..

i was the MC for both protocol and informal event. guess what, i had never done any MC for informal, NEVER DONE before and it was tremendously gawky how i embarrassed myself by putting me in such way, a way of " BEING embarrassed"  lol. luckily, i was hidden by the presence of these two beautiful ladies as they were the MC too!..

 

so, we talked..talked and talked..and talked... we get used to it and alhamdulillah, we nailed it!! hahaha

so here are some pictures i'd like to share..

loved this picture

baru balek haji? alhmdulillah, ameeenn

casual poses

lol, i'm still holding the microphone.

with oorvasi, we snapped this picture while i'm holding a plate with plenty of rice.LOL

guess what i'm saying? or singing?

these guy were so different by the way they're dressing

me and kak sue.we're like brother and sister

a lil snapped with my colleague friends

ehem2x.. with ros marissa <3 <3 <3

at the front door of the hall. here, the MC's crew

12 o'clock and everyone was changed, getting ready to get back.

so, even though i ate the last plate together with bunch of people who had worked overtime, the night was so worth to remember. thank you for believing me, and well done to all crews who put so much effort to make this into reality. so, next year, we'll going to be the seniors and hopefully we'll enjoying our last year TOGETHER. looking forward  to "BULI" the 3rd year student who'll be the organizer next year..SIAPLAAAH hihihihih

'' s i d i A "

hey, this gonna be my 1st entry in April..

mlm tadi ntah TeTibe mood utk jog membuak2.. 1st trial jogging utk bulan april dan tahon ini..#sedey
tapi x ape, sekurg2nye aku CUBE! bukan utk kuros (#tawar hati sbnrye) tapi utk sihat & nak naik kan seri diwajah..bia tampak MUDE dan bertenage sentiase..



#siap2 mandi..TeTibe nak wat entry mlm ni or PAGI ni..

klo sape2 follow aku kat twitter and FB, mesti pasan origami katak ni
#adekefollower??? hurm..aku anggap je la ko pasan...



#my lil froggy...



origami ni telah meletuskan gegaran & tamparan kat dak2 #biomed. origami ni kirenye mcm penguat teori mereka la sebelom ni..yela, sblm ni tanggapan drg samar2 je, skrg dgn adenye this lil froggy, sume da JELAS & CLEAR seclear wajah CLEAN & Clear..

*nak tau ke tanggapan ape???

tanggapan aku digossipkan berkapel dgn si ehem2....

#bunyikcengkerik

sume berlaku bile ade penyampai RADIO HUTfm yg meriuh2kan pendudok tetap biomed.. tapi aku x salahkan drg. salah aku sendiri x menerangkan situasi yg sebenar (sebab gossip meliar tu da MELIAR sebelom gossip tu sampai ke telinga tampan aku). apelah kudrat aku utk menafikan gosip ini sdgkan da kecoh 1 malaysia. aku hanye mampu menunduk,diam dan menyanyi...
H E H E H E H E H E H E..

aku x anggap ni serius, #daa, budak2 kan..biasela tu zaman university..
tpi " s i d i A" anggap ini bukan satu guraun # bak kate lagu achik spin ngn Nana

aku mulai perasan " s i d i A" semakin menjauhi diri aku. dan A L H M D U L I L L A H ~ ALLAH kurniakan aku sifat memahami dan rase bersalah terhadap org lain.. aku dapat kesan dan sume adalah gare2 perkara " i t u".

meh aku crite ape yg berlaku ant aku n " s i d i A ".

ok, sume berlaku bile kami attach kat #PPUKM 2 bulan, 1 bulan/sem.
walaopun, kami ade 20 org dlm 1 kump..tapi melayu ade 4 saje.. (bukan perkauman, tp SEJUJURNYE kite lebih selese berinteraksi dgn sebangse sendiri). selama 2 bulan, kami berjaye membina 1 ikatan persahabatan yg aku kire lebih erat dari coursemate lain.. S G T e r a t.
erat kami, erat yg lain dari lain...kami boleh K U T O K , C A C I & h a m o n satu same lain #xdelaextreme sgt ye.. walopn kami bebas m e n c A r o t, tp kami tahu batas pergaulan dan adat ketimuran tetap diamalkan zaman berzaman..


#moment ni "s g t b a H A g i E"..betape happy nye kami

dan mungkin isu ini berbangkit bile kami menggunakan medium T w i T T e r as a way of ou communication. tp #sedeynye antare kami berempat PADEWAKTU itu hanye "s i d i A" & aku je ade twitter. jadi komunkasi tu lebih kerap antare aku dan " s i d i A".
paling menambahkan teori awal mereka adalh bile username " s i d i A" adalah #(sumthing yg sweetla)

cth T w i T T e r
esok nak lunch mane @kekasihkucinta

h a h a h a h a..makin cerahla mase depan kami utk meng IYA kan teori awal mereka..

"s i d i A" pandai wat origami. #jangan terkejot sbb bukan aku sorg je dpt, kami bertige pon dapat mase hari terakhir attach.. jadi, aku yg G e d i X ni mintak la tolon utk wat origami yg berunsurkan H I j A u dan K a t a k .. h e h e h e h e...

make terciptala origami ini...

origami ni telah MENGUATKAN t e o r i kedua mereka...

kami berempat rapat sgt..rapat.. dan aku ni jenis bley layan dak2 gurl kt klas la..#sah2 laki sikit....h a h a h a
no choice, layan jela depa ni..


#contoh aku bley selesa dgn drg..h e h e h e...#untongleHAku..

dgn adenye gossip ni, ak n "s i d i A" dah x boleh mcm dulu. nak berborak,nak men c a c i, nak m en c e r c a pon da x boleh..
aku tahu, xade sape akan bace entri ni, ..biarkan la entry ni aku simpan utk tatapan aku bile da tua nanti...

insyaAllah, dgn adenye situasi mcmni, mbuatkan aku lebih m a Ta n G dlm pergaulan. dan insyaALLah,moge doa2 sahabat2 lain, aku dapat JO Doh secepat mungkin..h e h e h e h e

kate2 akhir:
terasa diri ni #R E T I Ssssss....h a H a h A

Terima kasih sebab masih sudi kisah pasal diri aku...terharu!..

hello to A NEW life...

so, 3 years didn't worth for a true friendship. it was a big mistake to ever met someone like one. i have a great feeling that this was just the beginning of a true life. a LIFE of finding a best FRIEND.

i never asked something ridiculous
nor ever granted the wishes ever wished.

thought it would be easier to have someone a side, but i didn't know it much tougher I've ever imagined.. someday, I'd be used to it.

so this is my life,..i've been keeping this secret for much too long that no one ever dig it down deeper. well, i didn't mean to reveal it to anyone because i believe, ALLAH knows.

He's the only One i rely to.

but it's a lie when we can live our entire life without 'someone'.
well, better to be alone than to have 'UNSURE' someone..
it might sounded so offensive the way i describe it, but i promise that i won't quit. quit from finding a new one.

i never ask for all of this, i never imagine what it's going to be.
OR MAYBE I'm too nice with them.. i don't know.

NOW I'M FREE...free from someone that used to push me, to care "them" back. i don't like to be pushed. let me FREE....well I AM now.

NOW,i can live a whole day without being worried of how 'them' feel, of how they're gonna think about me. I JUST DON'T CARE, bcoz all this while only Me the one who had suffered worrying 'them'. i took everything to please them.
now, it's about time they please to have me...

hello to a new LIFE, goodbye to an OLD episodes.

i already forgiven you, but to ask weather I'm willing to take you back...IT'S A NOoooo for me....


by: sibuntal@aj nazir

A day in KL fes~

well yesterday, we've decided to go way TOo wild.
so here we were:-
SEOULgarden~ rm35 per head/weekends

tros p tgk JOHN CARTER..

singgah sat kat SATAY burger

faizal order satay a'cheese


aku and am, satay burger

SINGGAH SAT kat secret recipe~

cappuccino cheese


hot latte


kenyang

tros balek kolej.

p/s: HARI MAKAN sedunia~ =D

secret recipe~

entri kali ni pasal makan~
da lame x kua idea nk wat entri, so...inilah die.

buntal,iza,ika & kak sue

teke buntal makan mane?? =))

fish & chip ika

lasagna iza. taste nice!

heeee~ buntal x mkn heavy meal sbb buntal nak makan cake aje~
pe2 pon, dinner time ni sonok =)

AKU lahir febuari la BAI...

Ini rahsie bulan aku..aku x kate aku terlalu taksob dengan rahsie2 kelahiran ni, tapi boleh dikatekan, 99% adalah benar berkenaan diri aku sendiri..

FEBRUARI

Berfikiran abstrak. Sukakan benda yang realiti dan abstrak. Bijak dan pintar Berpewatakan yang mudah berubah. Mudah menawan orang lain. Agak pendiam. Pemalu dan rendah diri. Jujur dan setia pada segalanya. Keras hati untuk mencapai matlamat. Tidak suka dikongkong. Mudah memberontak apabila dikongkong. Suka kegiatan yang lasak. Emosinya mudah terluka dan sangat sensitif. Mudah mempamerkan marahnya. Tidak suka benda yang remeh-temeh. Suka berkawan tapi kurang mempamerkannya. Sangat berani dan suka memberontak. Bercita-cita tinggi, suka berangan-angan dan ada harapan untuk merealisasikan impiannya. Pemerhatian yang tajam. Suka hiburan dan sukan. Suka benda yang bersifat seni. Sangat romantik pada dalaman tetapi tidak pada luaran. Berkecenderungan pada benda yang tahyul. Amat mudah dan boleh menjadi terlalu boros. Belajar untuk mempamerkan emosi.

MEMANG same..kecuali yg bersukan la...haha
so, sesiapa yg terbace, amatilah sifat rahsia aku ni.. insyaAllah, aku akan menghargai setiap persahabatan klo korang HARGAI sifat aku kat atas ni.

SPM~

... aku seolah mampu berdiri,
seperti ada sinar kecil memancar dihadapan..

ALHAMDULILLAH, tiada ungkapan yg manis dpt ak ungkapkan..berjuta kali tak akan aku jemu, walau sekalipun, xkan penat bibir ini mengucap kalimat keramat itu..

keperitan selama 2 tahun menunggu, akhirnya terlunas pada mlm ini..
aku tahu, ia tidak sehebat lain yg sekarang boleh aku katekan lebih layak bergembira berbanding aku.. tapi, nilai kenikmatan yg ALLAH beri sudah cukup mewarnai seluruh muka bumi.

JANJI ALLAH itu pasti..

dan semoga aku mempelajari hikmah yg diberikan pd malam ini.

semoga dengan kurniaan ini, membuat aku lebih terus berusaha mengejar keredhaan dan keberkatanNya.

semoga kenikmatan yg dipinjamkan akan terus berterusan..

semoga keyakinan terhadap ALLAH akan terus mekar dlm diri yg masih mentah mencari ketenangan.

semoga lebih dekat aku dengan Sang Pencipta..






YEHAAAAAA......SYUKORRRR!!